“I opened two gifts this morning. They were my eyes.” Zig Ziglar
I cried myself to sleep last night. It’s fair to say that I have a lot on my mind right now on a personal level and everything is just getting to me. I was aiming for an early night with today being the first day back at work after two and a half weeks off for the Christmas break. Unfortunately, that didn’t happen. In fact, I remember looking at the alarm clock and seeing 0:00. The next time I saw the clock was just before 4:30 and I woke with a pounding head.
Ever since my chemotherapy treatment, I’ve had migraines on a regular basis, though my daith piercing has almost stopped my left-side ones. Luckily, this wasn’t a migraine. I fell back to sleep eventually and then my alarm awoke me with a start. How could it possibly be 6am already? I hit the snooze button on several occasions, desperately clinging onto the last few minutes beneath my trusted duvet. I described my Sunday blues yesterday. Sleepless nights are a symptom of this for me. They have been since I was in primary school, so, although I desperately want to change my mindset, I think I am definitely set in my ways!
Despite feeling far from upbeat, I showered, dried my hair, got dressed and threw on my face. I don’t dress for anyone except myself. Work clothes are practical, but I feel confident in what I choose. Make up, likewise, is for no one else but me. However, I am aware that it can hide my tiredness to an extent.
I decided that my headache was not going to dictate the way my day went. I plastered a smile on my face and had a giggle with a colleague to whom I gave a lift. I was genuinely starting to feel better without filling my body with countless pills to combat the pain. Just seeing the return of my students made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. I had a lovely day and am excited about the coming months… some huge developments ahead! There you have it… day 6 of January and I tried my very hardest to swivel my initially negative thoughts into positives. The quote I used at the top is absolutely true. Even when things don’t go to plan, they’re not as I expected them to be, I am here, I am alive and I am grateful for those things.